That’s how I feel today. I feel like I’m numb. I came back and forth to the laptop today, but stared at the empty ‘add new post’ page, and thought “I don’t know what to write about” is it a writers block? Perhaps, I actually was going to do a PPP but it expired, I should of done it yesterday, foolish me *sigh* I know there will be more to come along. Well today is the beginning of hell week for me lol, well maybe not a whole week more like a handful of days. It’s still hell! It’s the monthly monster again. Wish it would just go away. Do you ever type, and as you type you feel like your talking, and you wished that when people read it, that they would read it in the way you hear it in your head? Happens to me every time I write a post. Sometimes I ask William to read the post to me, just to see how it sounds when he reads it. There are a few times, he wouldn’t pause where he should. So I ask myself, was it my writing that made him do that, or was it him just not pausing when he is suppose to? I guess it could be both. One of the things I hate about “this time of the month” is my mood. Yesterday I was ok, maybe a little snappy, *sorry William* and today I just feel down, sad, out of it, kinda floating. I hate this. So I’m debating whether to take my laptop upstairs and just be alone, so I don’t snap or anything at William?!

Last night I was talking to my lovely *gorgeous* British friend Steve, (if he was only single) shhh don’t tell anyone I said that hehe, I’m kidding anyway, we were talking because he had an overnight at his job, where he spends the night in an apartment. During his shift, he messaged me and told me he had fainted, omgosh I got so scared for him, straight away I asked him “did you eat” because I know I get headaches when I don’t eat, and sometimes light headed, it’s not a fun feeling. So I asked him if he was ok, and if he’s sure. And the nurse had suggested he go home, but he really wanted to do his job. Which I admire him for that greatly, but I also said maybe it would be for the best. He has to be ready at work at any time of the night if he is needed, but someone else at his job said he’d keep an eye out as well. So I briefly spoke to him earlier and he said he was feeling better which I’m really glad to hear. I didn’t speak much to him, he’s had meetings all day. It’s kind of scary to know someone so far away, and when they get ill you wonder how you would find out if they are ok? All I hope is for him to be healthy and that he eat when he’s suppose to hehe. Wow I really ranted about that lol.

As you know, or maybe you don’t. I am a big Twilight Saga fan, yes indeed I am. And with the new trailer out, wow!! I am soo really excited about Eclipse coming out. There are 106 days (June 30th 2010) left until the film is out at the cinema and yes I am going to see it. Maybe not the first week, but definitely by the second. And New Moon is going to be added to my DVD collection, because what kind of a fan would I be if I didn’t add it hey? I have to say I am not pleased that they used Bryce Dallas Howard as the new Victoria, grr how can they do that? I believe the film will still be an amazing story to see come alive (to the Twilight Saga fans), but it changes a feeling for me personally when changing the actress *sigh* anyway so even if you are not a fan of Twilight Saga, I am leaving you all with the Eclipse trailer, enjoy! Oh and before I go I wanted to wish Jaime a very Happy Birthday :cake: have a couple of and have a fantastic day!!